micah lee david howard

    The first time i ever met micah was after a few months of me and Chris going out. Before, Chris went over to see him every other weekend and he would tell me all these stories. You have no idea how much he talked about him. I mean everything was about Micah. When I met him he was really shy and wouldnt leave Chris's side. It was so funny because me and chris were on one computer doing some homework and Micah was on the other computer playing. He had been sitting there really quite so we went over to go see him and he was sleeping holding the mouse with his head back. It was the funniest thing. During Christmas I played ball with him and saw how attached he was to Chris. I loved how everytime Micah wanted something that would make a mess he always kept asking until he got his way. On Christmas he wanted to eat on his new Cars table and Angela kept saying no, then she finally gave up. And the first time he got up it fell over and spilt everywhere but it didnt even matter. Even with my brothers he'll say Micah does that, Micah can do this. Even know watching him play with my one year old brother I can tell he is seeing Micah everytime. This is the hardest thing I've ever been through and it kills me to see Chris hurt.

             Micah my friend I hear you loved me will I love you to and I am looking up at the stars and coming to you hold out your hand and let me thru

Micah has a mickey scooter a little 3 wheeler that hie sissy gave to him he road it hard to around the house on Nana's wood floors on the porch was just the deal one day he was riding fast and didn't stop off the porch in the air on his butt there he was he stood up and said Micah not hurt Nana i was scared to death he just got back on tough he was for being three God how can this be I look out my kitchen window and I can see my daughter and her Blonde hair shining with Micah on the trampoline Micah can you remember can you see your mommie with you and baby "DE" she loved you so and played hard with you what happened baby Nana doesn't know you where loved all your life I wish you could have stayed I wish I would have known when you told me you didn't want to go I would have ask for you to stay with me again I only ask once and mom said no if we only would of known we would have kept you close and held on tight so you couldn't go Micah watch over us With God right there by your side we love you so I will never let you go come visit me often I like to feel you here with me Nana cries a lot right now but it will get better God told me!!!!!!

Micah loved to eat never much and all over the house Chris do you remember strawberries and chocolate and lemon wedges i watched an 8 year old girl today drink a strawberry smoothies and with tears look at me and say these things to me you know no one comes to my house because I'm sure of the pain but let an old woman explain I got the most wonderful gift from God to share my grandson's whole life with him not just a wisp of air once in a while I see him in the hall on the front porch in the bathroom Hell I see him in my dreams and is it pain oh yes just believe if I didn't have this though I would have nothing at all to have had him for 3 years to have loved and laughed with this child I'm one of the most blessed I am so very sorry for the ones that had no time that only saw him on holidays or birthdays or when they felt they had no choice what happened i can hardly stand and with no cause I'll go insane but God choose me to love this child and gave me his Mother once to hold I'll be here if anyone ever needs me but until then every minute everyday please make memories to enjoy I'll stay here and be able to enjoy this boy and all the memories I can see for as long as I can I'm afraid of forgetting one day don't let that happen come set remember and enjoy

I have a big house and when I would yell upstairs for Micah's mom he would go the bottom of the stairs and yell MOM NANA TAKA TO YOU i can see him at the bottom of those stiars oh god i can see him every where

i looked out side this morning and could see Micah and Angela coming up the sidewalk on his big guy's bike she was teaching him to ride but she was getting a workout and he was getting a laugh go again he would say and rode the power scooters of sissy's with his uncle Chris he thought he was grand oh how much fun he had you see he was a true little boy to me he snuck in my room and tore up the drawers i would say Micah where are you little boy on wed. and Thurs. his mom went to school he watched movies with me and talked all the way through them his sister and him would always choose the time when my show was on to make the most noise now i turn off the TV to hear those sounds and they are there close your eyes and i can see Micah and Makayla playing can you see don't ever quit seeing those memories there real and so GRAND what a wonderful little boy we had God was this truly your plan to cause so much pain to make me go insane was this the plan from the start I can not understand he was not old he was not sick what happened to him GOD ONLY KNOWS !!!!!

does anyone remember his pockets he tried to but every penny he could find in his pockets which because my little man had no butt the pocket was always clear below the knee watching him retrieve his changes was so much fun and everytime he started to go with his mom he would hit me up for fye fye money{french fries}

and I would always give him 5 or 10 dollars whatever I had thank God above I had it for my love there was a time in my life that much money was gold in my house but a few good times for Micah if thats all we were suppose to have I thank the lord everyday that his family lived with me to share almost every minute of those three years I was so blessed please if you have a minute to think figure out who would you be with if it was just your last moment and go find them today spend every minute don't let them slip away don't regret your last days  my blessed grandson I miss you but I know I spent as much time as the Lord would allow me I provided to the best of my ablity I loved my grandchidren hard everyday so I do not regret my last days with you i just regret that there over so soon" YOU WERE MEAN"T TO BE A GRAND MAN"

i love my brothers I WISH ONE DIDNY GO AWAY  WE USE TO PLAY IN THE POOL AND JUMPED OFF THE COCH AND DROVE NANA CRAZY WE PLAYED CAMPING IN THE HOUSE HE FOLLOWED ME EVERWHERE INTHE HOUSE I WISH HE STILL COULD

    YOUR SISSY LOVES YOU EVERDAY THIS IS HARD I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY BUT i will be back   mackey

I READ THE MEMORIES AND THOUGHT OF THIS SWEET CHILD AND i CAN ONLY SAY THANK YOU ALL THE LOVE AND SUPPORT HAVE JUST FILLED MY HEART i CAN'T HARDLY STOP WRITING IT KEEPS ME SANE RIGHT NOW i MISS THIS DEAR CHILD MORE THAN i CAN EXPLAIN THESE WERE MY DARLINGS MY DAUGHTER BROUGHT TO ME TO LOVE AND PROTECT i feel I HAVE FAILED  IN SOME WAY BUT THE LOVE I FEEL IS SO OVER WHELMING mICAH CAN SEE US AND FEEL US EVERYWHERE HE LOVES US FROM UP THERE

This past summer, Chris was able to spend the summer with Micah.  Chris stayed at his dads, and that is where Micah and his mom and brother lived..  Of course, I missed Chris very much while he was at dads house.  One day, when Chris came home, I asked him to please stay at home for the weekend.... But Chris would have nothing to do with that idea!! " Micah needed him, " he informed me, with an almost urgentness in his voice!!!   Why, I wondered, I could not understand why he chose Micah over spending time with me.....for I missed Chris very much!!  But I  could not persuade Chris to stay home with me.   Chris said he and Micah had a routine, they would get up in the morning and watch TV (Mickey Mouse) and eat cereal together.   Then maybe play ball!  Chris loved him sooooooo much!!  And now looking back, I wonder, was there a power greater than us, that made it so important that Chris spend that time with his nephew?!  yes, I think there was!!!!!    Thank you Lord for giving them that time together