Nana, party with your daughter. Celebrate her birthday! Celebrate HER life here on earth. Here is how we do it and forever will, is that we keep my Jacky a part of the celebration with helium balloons and messages on them>>let go to fly on to heaven. On or around Jacky's birthday we will continue to celebrate HIS past life on earth too. But ALL holidays, Jacky will be with us, spoken of amongst us, remembered, and messages sent...to heaven via balloons and memories.
Just because they aren't here doesn't mean that they aren't SOMEWHERE having celebrations of their own. If I didn't honestly believe that, then....I would just have to give up my sanity>>>which I'm not about to do! The devil took enough when he stole my child!
We have to CHOOSE to let go, altho we don't want to, we're afraid to, feel guilty to do so. Why? Because we're human. We NEED answers. Let Micah go to not rest in peace, but LIVE in peace...so that YOU can live in peace. Yet keep him a part of your life with all of your celebrations and holidays, because he IS a part of your life. I promise, PROMISE you will never EVER forget him. That is the least of your fears.
You have wonderful stories and memories to pass on to baby De. I do understand that your circumstances are majorly different from most, but ...our children are all still in the same place, back to where they came from in the first place. Try to rest in your own peace simply knowing this...