ANGELA HOWARD
MICAH'S
{{{{{MOTHER}}}}}
THIS EYES WHAT DO THEY SEE
THIS MIND WHAT DOES IT THINK
THIS HEART SO BROKE
THIS MIND SO FULL
GOD LET THIS CHILD FIND
PEACE AND BE ABLE TO REST
SO CRUSHED SO LOST
WILL SHE EVER MEND
WILL YOU LEAVE HER LOST
WILL YOU WALK THAT PATH WITH HER
WILL YOU HELP HER BREATH
AGAIN
GOD WHERE ARE YOU
THESE THREE WHAT JOY
THESE THREE WHAT HAPPINESS
THESE THREE ARE ANGEL'S
THESE THREE ARE ANGELA'S HEART
NOW ONE IS GONE AND BROKEN HER HEART WHAT PLAN DOES HE HAVE TO COMFORT HER NOW WE ALL NEED TO PRAY FOR GOD TO TAKE HOLD OF THIS MOTHER TODAY AND WALK WITH HER ALL THE WAY SHE HAS COME FAR ON HER OWN BUT NEEDS GOD NOW THERE IS STRENGHT IN PRAYER SO LETS PRAY EVERYDAY FOR HER TO WALK WITH LORD TO SHOW HER THE WAY
SHE IS LOST AND THERE IS NO PLAN
SHE IS IN PAIN AND THERE IS NO END
SO PRAY
ON THIS DAY WE HAD NO PLAN
IT WAS SUMMER AND WE ALL
DRESSED FOR A HOT DAY
WHEN WE GOT TO K-MART
I SAID LETS GET A PICTURE
MICAH WENT TO RED THAT DAY
EVERYTHING HE PICKED UP WAS RED
SO THIS IS WHAT WE ENDED UP
WITH CHTISTMAS IN JULY
WHAT A JOY !!!!!!!
I AM THE NANA TO THIS CHILD
MICAH WOULD SAY CAN YOU
HAIR ME NANA
MY LOVE THIS IS MEMORIAL WEEKEND
YOU WILL HAVE VISITORS ALL AROUND
WATCH OVER THEM
YOU ARE OUR ANGEL
YOU ARE GRAND
NANA
MICAH LEE DAVID HOWARD
WAS BORN TO ANGELA AND CHAD HOWARD
IN BEDFORD TEXAS
ON AUGUST 30TH 2004
AND DIED
WHILE ON VACATION IN LYONS KANSAS
ON JANUARY 9TH 2008
AT THE AGE OF 3
You were such a tiny thing
The first day that I held you
Before I knew it you were
Almost as tall as me;
And worried about how you looked.
I was worried about how you behaved.
As you grew, my lessons became harder;
Being a Mother is a hard job.
And I had to learn how as I went along.
I always worried that I would do
The right thing, say the right thing;
To teach you the right thing.
Before I knew it you were all grown up.
My time had run out for teaching.
All I could do now is pray that I had done a good job.
I worried that I had taught you all the important things.
Like love, loyalty and family.
As I watch your spiritual growth now,
With children of your own,
It is very clear, that even with no experience
I did a pretty good job.
Love, Mom xoxox
TO ANGELA I LOVE YOU
THESE ARE FROM SISSY SHE KNOWS
HOW TO DO IT NOW WATCH OUT
SHE'LL SEND YOU STUFF
ALL THE TIME LOVE YOU MICAH
THE CHAIN SENT TO ANGELA ON A PLAGUE
FROM KELLY THE MOTHER OF
KIM,ALAN AND JOSH
WITH LOVE
We little knew that morning that
God was going to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we do the same.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
you did not go alone;
for part of us went with you,
the day God called you home.
You left us peaceful memories,
your love is still our guide,
and though we cannot see you,
you are always at our side.
Our family chain is broken,
and nothing seems the same,
but as God calls us one by one,
the chain will link again.
IF YOU CLICK YOU CAN MAKE A SNOW FLAKE FOR MICAH
THIS WAS FROM SOMEONE SPECAIL THAT TOOK HER TIME THAT DIDN'T EVEN KNOW US
MICAH MICKEY IS PEEKING DOWN AT YOU
THIS IS ANOTHER PERSON THAT MADE THIS FOR MICAH MY THANKS TO ALL THAT CARE
My Child I have
seen
you Before your birth
I have made you
And I shall bear
you
When you walk in light
The darkness of hell
May seem so close
Yet
you know
I have a victory
And you are my child
My eyes are upon
you
Oh come to me
If you shall fall
I'll lift you up
When you seek
Me
The flames of hell
May want to burn you
Yet you know
I have a victory
And you are
My child
When you walk
My ways
I am with you
Like a white cloud
Gliding above you
When you hold on
my promise
The gates of hell
May seem so scary
Yet you know
I have a victory
And you
are My child
Cry not
I Am coming
soon Endure,
my child,
endure
I Am
the Mighty One
And you
are My child
God Heals
Remember when you heard the words -
and your mind went blank - you were in another world
God heals
Remember in your darkest hours -
when all that surrounds you is pain and sorrow
God heals
Remember friends' prayers - your family's encouragement
- glimmers of hope from everyday angels
God heals
Quiet...you can hear Him now -
always there - yet never this close
God heals
It's just another day -
yet everything has changed - and you hear yourself say
God heals
Birds are singing -
the sky is a beautiful blue - flowers are blooming...
God heals
Truths that you knew as a child -
awakened again with new understanding
God heals
Remember when others can't -
that life is a gift - each day to treasure
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MICAH WAS AN M&M LITTLE MAN
HE LOVED TWO SPECAIL THINGS
MOM WAS HIS HERO
MICKEY WAS THE MAN
WITHOUT EITHER AND HIS WORLD
WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN THE SAME
I CAN SAY AS HIS NANA
THAT HIS MOM MADE HIM
LAUGH
LOVE, SING
DANCE,SMILE
SHE LOVED
THIS
CHILD
SHE
WAS HIS HERO
MICKEY WAS THE BEGINNING AND THE END OF HIS DAY
EVERYTHING MICKEY WE USE TO SAY
WE LAUGHED AND THOUGHT WHAT A WONDERFUL THING
TO WATCH A CHILD WITH
SUCH AN INOCENT GLOW A SPARKLE
FOR MICKEY THAT WAS SUCH A JOY
THESE ARE THINGS THAT I KNOW HOLD ON TO
THE SIMPLY THINGS
PURE JOY !!!!
GOD TOOK YOU
MOM NEEDS YOU
WE ALL MISS YOU
EVERYONE LOVES YOU
YOU WERE OUR JOY
is such a specail thing do we take care of it everyday
the little things the things we say and do do we cherish
one another do we pray for family everyday
do we sacrifice without question
do we hug and kiss each other
do we call and say are you okay
MY TREE IS UP IT NEVER REALLY GOT PUT AWAY
EVERY YEAR I WOULD WRAP IT AND PUT IT TO THE SIDE
BECAUSE I COULD NOT GET IT BACK UP THE TO THE 3RD FLOOR
AND AS USUAL KIDS LIKE PRESENTS
BUT THEY DONT LIKE THE WORK
SO HELP WAS OUT OF THE QUESTION
SO NOW IT IS A BEAUTIFUL NIGHT LIGHT WITH
MICAH AND MAKAYLA'S DECORATING THIE YEAR IT IS JUST
GRAND!!!!!!!
this is somthing i have got use to saying everyday
i find myself saying i'm sorry for so many things
nana is sorry for the things
i have said and done through out my years
i bend my knees to pray
everyday
ROSES MEAN SO MUCH I SEND
THIS ONE TO MY LOVELY DAUGHTER THAT
I LOVE SOOOOO
VERY MUCH
GOD IS WITH YOU
micah you are always in my heart and on my mind
i love you so love is somthing and the one thing no one can take from me
you are my grandson boo
you are the only memoriE have anymore and that is okay with me
and i pray everyday every minute i can
nana loves you boo in my mind
in my heart
in my soul
is where you are
although you are in heaven the season is near we will all love you through out the years know we will never forget you and your life will be celebrated if only in our memories and dreams MERRY CHRISTMAS my grandson
MICAH LEE DAVID HOWARD
AUGUST30TH 2004 ---------- JANUARY 9TH 2008
Micah was born in Bedford Texas on this day to Chad and Angela Howard when he was 3 days old his Nana went to see him he had a problem with his kidney's so we brought the family to Kansas city so Micah could be at children mercy hospital close to all the extended family for help and emotional support for the parents Dr, Murry of the children's hospital determined there was an obstruction and removed it and Micah was so sick but only ended up with a small scar we were all so thankful to God and his care givers they all lived at the grandmothers house for about 6 months his father working 2 jobs and his mother watching over him like a hawk they moved to their own place where they thrived Micah's heath just got better The Mother took a job and missed her son so much in March of 2006 they took a move to Florida for the support of Chad's other son CJ who was having a difficult time But in April of the same year mom was pregnant with who was to be Micah's baby brother baby "DE" which was born in October 2006 Micah just thought this was grand mom started business school and then they had the most wonderful Christmas ever in 2007 he laughed and snuck to see his presents curious how Santa was to come down the chimney upset papa ate two of Santa's cookies and sang you better not shout you better not cry Santa won't come see you as the days went on he learned the song and watched all the Christmas classics on TV he got ideas from them you would not believe then on the 26th his mother loaded them up for a trip to Lyons Kansas where my Grandson never returned and died on the eve of 9 January 2008 that is when my heart broke in pieces the thought of him not being here i just can't get that in my mind
Dear Lord, we think a mistake's been made And we feel it's right and proper To inform you of this error made And ask you to consider our offer You see...you took someone from us Who's too rough around the edges And would be better off on earth with us Than up with you in heaven And it wouldn't be a hardship For us to take him back Just send him back to us...safe and sound And there'll be no questions asked We're even prepared to list the reasons That he'd be better off right here And we're sure when they're considered Your choice will be quite clear He's just not ready for heaven yet Right now he'd find it quite a task But if you'll give him a few more years We'll work on fixing that First, you'll find he prefers a pair of jeans And well-worn shoes or boots To whatever it is that you wear up in heaven Be it robes or business suits For he's much to hard a worker To keep clothes pristine...he'd make a fuss! And though you need hard workers in heaven He'd still be better off with us Second, when you consider The language for which he's known His colorful words would shock the angels So you might want to send him home For though you'd respect that he speaks the truth And "says things as they are" Frankly, we need more truth like his here on earth Heaven is just too far He doesn't have perfect table manners He prefers beer to a glass of wine He's just not ready for your heavenly feasts His manners aren't that refined And we realize you appreciate his kindness And the respect he's rightly earned From those of us privileged to know him..."
"You were taken on angel's wings As you sweetly and quietly slept And returned to heaven before we knew That you had even left Our hearts are heavy and sorrowed That our time with you was so brief For you were our gift of heaven's light That is now replaced with grief But not so much that we won't be grateful For every second you were here You filled our hearts with so much joy Treasured memories we'll hold forever dear And though we weren't blessed to see you grow up We were blessed to see you smile And hold you lovingly in our arms ..."
It's so difficult to let you go Though death's left us no other choice We're mourning the loss of never seeing you again Of never hearing your precious voice It seems that in life there are certain times Which are more than "simply unfair" When our hearts search out for better answers But cannot seem to find them there And such is the case at your passing Contemplating the briefness of your life All the great things that you still would have done If you'd been granted a little more time It isn't difficult to envision the possibilities For look at what you'd already done The difference you'd made in so many lives In all that you had become Perhaps you were simply too good for this life So God called you back to Heaven That your life needed no further testament Than the goodness you'd already given But regardless of the reason For why you had to depart We'll miss you every single day of our lives For you were the pride of our hearts! Thank you for being our example Inspiring us through your courage and drive We'll cherish all the precious memories You lovingly created in our lives For truly, your life reflected A wisdom that few, so young, can see ..."
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GOD TOOK ONE OF THE MIRACLES THAT MADE MY LIFE COMPLETE
HOW DO YOU FIX THAT
THE TWO GRAPHICS YOU SEE ABOVE WAS MADE BY SOMEONE OUT THERE THAT
DID NOT KNOW MY GRANDSON BUR TOOK THE TIME
TO CARE ANOTHER WAY THAT I KNOW THIS IS A WORLD THAT PEOPLE TAKE
THE TIME FOR OTHER PEOPLE
I LOOK AT THIS AND SAY WORDS THAT I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO EXPRESS SO I LEAVE THE REST UP TO YOU MY DEAR
MICAH WOULD COME HOME FROM PAPA'S HOUSE AND GET PAPER FROM THE PRINTER FOR US TO MAKE HIM A PLANE AND IT WOULD NOT WORK LIKE THE ONE PAPA MADE FOR HIM HE WOULD SAY MICAH PAPAR PAIN NANA YOU MAKE FOR ME NANA THERE WOULD BE PAPER ALL OVER THE HOUSE BUT NONE DID WHAT PAPA'S DID
HE LOVED HIS PAPA SO GO WITH GOD MY CHILD AND WE WILL MEET YOU THERE ONE DAY SOON
I can't believe after all this time,I can't get over you,
I guess a love like ours is one of a kind,a love that is true.
It's been 113 days sense you left us to go to God & heavens immensity,
Do you still remember me?
It's like a bad dream that plays over & over in my head,
Of things I wish I'd done or words I would of said.
There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of you,
Even after all this time,what am I going to do?
Maybe this is the way nana's are suppose to feel,
Perhaps our wounds are never intended to heal.
If I could ask but one question why,
How is it God could need you more than I?
DO YOU DO YOU EVER THINK ABOUT
YOUR THOUGHTS WHERE THEY
COME FROM AND WHY
ARE THEY SANE
I DO
EVERYDAY NOT SO MUCH BEFORE
NOW ALL THE TIME YOUR ON
MY MIND MY THOUGHTS
NEVER STOP AT ALL
AM I CRAZY
MAYBE
DO YOU THINK OF WHY AND HOW
DO YOU EVER CRY OUT LOUD
HAVE YOU GONE OUT SIDE
TO BREATHE OR SCREAM
DO YOU WAKE UP TO
PRAY DO YOU KNEEL
AND SAY WHY ME
I HAVE
TO BEG FOR ONE MORE DAY DO YOU
BARGAIN AND HOPE THAT JUST
MAYBE ONE OF THOSE
AMAZING MIRACLES
WILL HAPPEN
PRETTY MUCH
THEN YOUR NOT CRAZY OR INSANE
THAT IS CALLED PAIN FOR ME
I NEVER DREAMED I COULD
FEEL THIS BAD THIS SAD
I MISS MICAH
SO MUCH
TO MUCH
ALL DAY I PRAY
DID WE LET SOMETHING SLIP THREW OUR FINGERS
A BLESSING SO VERY GRAND ONE THAT WE
WILL NEVER GET BACK DO WE WATCH A LITTLE BETTER NOW
HAVE WE LEARNED A LESSON DO WE SHOW ARE FEELINGS
MORE NOW THAT WE HAVE LOST A TRUE BLESSING
DO WE HUG AND KISS OUR CHILDREN MORE
HAVE WE LEARNED A LESSON FROM THIS LOST BLESSING
DO WE TELL OUR CHILDREN HOW TRULLY WONDERFUL THEY ARE
HOW MUCH WE LOVE THEM EVERYDAY THAT WE CARE
UNCONDITIONALLY NO MATTER WHAT WE ARE THERE
HAVE WE LEARNED A LESSON FROM THE BLESSING THAT WE HAVE LOST
MICAH YOU WERE A GIFT FROM GOD A TRUE BLESSING
TODAY TOMORROW FOREVER…………….I’M YOUR NANA YOU SEE
MICAH YOU ARE MY HEART
MY THOUGHTS MY DREAMS
I MISS YOU MORE
AND MORE EVERYDAY
I MISS YOUR MOTHER AND BABY DE'
NANA LOVES YOU ALWAYS
God never promised
A life without pain,
Laughter without tears
Or sun without rain.
But He did promise
Strength for the day,
Comfort for the tears
And light for the way,
And for all who believe
In His Heaven above
He rewards their faith
In His everlasting love
When I was angry, Lord,
I was sent to my room.
"Don't come out until you have a smile on your face!"
When I was sad, Lord
I was told to cheer up.
"Just snap out of it!"
Now I expect to be abandoned, Lord.
I expect to be left alone with my pain.
I expect to be lonely in my brokenness.
When I am broken hearted,
When I am crushed in spirit,
Help me to rest in your promise to be close.
Help me to rest in your promise to save.
Amen.
God, make me brave for life: oh, braver than this.
Let me straighten after pain, as a tree straightens after the rain,
Shining and lovely again.
God, make me brave for life; much braver than this.
As the blown grass lifts, let me rise
From sorrow with quiet eyes,
Knowing Thy way is wise.
God, make me brave, life brings
Such blinding things.
Help me to keep my sight;
Help me to see aright
That out of dark comes light.
I LOOK AT THIS AND I REMEMBER MY CHILD THE THOUGHTS
THAT MUST BE TWIRLING IN HER HEAD THE MEMORIES OF
THE POOL OR JUST THE TUB THE SUMMER IS COMING AND YOUR NOT HERE
THE FUN WE HAD THE TEARS WE SHARED THE LAUGHS
THE GIGGLES STILL IN NANA'S HEAD IS SHE OKAY I OFTEN SAY
HER HEART SO BROKEN WILL IT HEAL
BABY DE'SO FULL OF LIFE AND LOVE TO GIVE TO HER AND SHARE
OR IS MICAH'S MEMORY JUST TO TOUGH
TO MY DAUGHTER WITH ALL MY LOVE
OPEN YOUR HEART EVEN IF IT'S TOUGH
THE HEAVENS ARE WATCHING YOU GUIDING YOU
FROM ABOVE YOUR GIFT FROM GOD WILL HELP
GUIDE YOU NOW HE IS YOUR ANGEL FROM ABOVE
AND THIS ANGEL WAS SO IN LOVE WITH MOMMIE
AND THOSE GREAT BIG HUGS TO KISS THOSE EYES
AND LICK HIS FACE WAS SOME OF HIS
HAPPIEST DAYS YOU MADE 3 YEARS OF ABSOLUTE JOY
MY GOD YOU HAD A WONDERFUL BOY
LOVE MOM [NANA]
MICAH LOVED MICKEY
AND WE LOVED MICAH
SO THERE YOU
HAVE IT
Lavinia |
This Christmas was not the same as last year. Last years was so much more fun. But now it was just the last time we saw you. And now tomorrow its been a year. We miss you very much and I will be thinking of you like I am now all day. Again, my life was changed because of you but I wish it hadn't.
<3lavinia
Jacky's Mom |
Happy birthday, little angel buddy! I decided to sneak into the memory section of your site, because....YOU are not only a precious memory to your family, but also to me.
Little, tiny, sweet life loving, baby Micah. If not for (((YOU))), I honestly wonder where (((I))) would be now, emotionally?
Your nana has stated that so often about ME now, giving me credit that I don't deserve. But she doesn't understand, nor did I until now....
It is precious spirits like YOU, child, that keep us going emotionally...that keeps us fighting down here for each other.
You and Jacky and all of our Angel babes. We don't quite understand why we lost you, but I personally understand that it is for a reason, to be worked out to the good. I've got my helium balloon machine ready too, for Monday. But I will share in your b'day party tomorrow.
By the way...my new out'door (free food) cafe begins Monday in memory of Jacky. But YOU are the guest of HONOR. Hope nobody fines us for all of these balloons and messages!
Lots of love to you and your family...
Kathi for Angela & Nana |
scarlett | NANA | November 26, 2020 |
mom 2 Waylon Kitchens | thinkin of you | January 5, 2010 |
The sky is filled with Angels
With puffy lacy wings
The remnants of God's beauty
With treasures they now bring
Each one of them a Guardian
That travels in the sky
To watch throughout eternity
Their parents from on high
Smiles that come from Angels
They fall like crystal rain
Eases earthly burdens
Lifting all life's pain
Halos so astounding
That glitter gold each day
Following their loved ones
In such a perfect way
Wings in gentle breezes
That fall from up above
Kissing every parent
With everlasting love
Angels soar through heaven
With everlasting light
Looking down from heaven
Saying their "goodnights"
Kissing all who loved them
So gently on the face
This life's tender mercy
Each parent can embrace
Wings and shiny halos
Travel from on high
Surrounding all their loved ones
They never say good-bye.
nana | the season | November 15, 2009 |
mom 2 Waylon kitchens | Hugs 2 U | August 27, 2009 |
Janice | Jacky's mom | May 18, 2009 |
Nana, I'm glad to see that you have responded. Sometimes when we think that we just can't take it anymore God will give us a fresh breath of energy and outlook on life if we calm our minds and let Him soothe us. Please keep relying on Him to lead you and allow your support systems such as Maria and myself to continue in your life. Our lives are our garden in a sense, and hopefully your husband is just a bad weed that needed to be plucked out. I pray that you allow yourself to find peace in your new surroundings, plant new seeds of love, keep negative people away from you for now, purpose to enjoy your time with Makayla even during the struggle, and stay strong. You are a very strong woman or you wouldn't have handled this as well as you have. Lots of love to you, as I am thinking of you and praying for you. As for Micah, we do know that he is happy, and there WILL be justice.
What is your new address?