micah lee david howard

been another year almost and you are missed like it was yesterday you have a new nephew he is 3 and would give you a run for your money we think of you daily almost hourly it is the season NaNa loves you more and the most each year

                               

 

 

 

                                                    

 

The sky is filled with Angels
With puffy lacy wings
The remnants of God's beauty
With treasures they now bring

 

Each one of them a Guardian
That travels in the sky
To watch throughout eternity
Their parents from on high

 

Smiles that come from Angels
They fall like crystal rain
Eases earthly burdens
Lifting all life's pain

 

Halos so astounding
That glitter gold each day
Following their loved ones
In such a perfect way

 

Wings in gentle breezes
That fall from up above
Kissing every parent
With everlasting love

 

Angels soar through heaven
With everlasting light
Looking down from heaven
Saying their "goodnights"

 

Kissing all who loved them
So gently on the face
This life's tender mercy
Each parent can embrace

 

Wings and shiny halos
Travel from on high
Surrounding all their loved ones
They never say good-bye.

Micah my little guy the season is here the day is drawing near the memories are so very clear and the love for you still here I have stayed clear of this site because functioning for me had become impossible i could not sleep or work i could not take care of Makayla all I could do was stare at your pic's and pray I was obessed with you and the loss of you I could remember the last day i saw you so clear that I was thinking of wrong things I had got myself i danger health financially and in every way possible but i am mentally better so i need to say i love you and thank our friends here for watching over you for me

 

 

~Angels carry messages of love.~

Nana, I'm glad to see that you have responded.  Sometimes when we think that we just can't take it anymore God will give us a fresh breath of energy and outlook on life if we calm our minds and let Him soothe us.  Please keep relying on Him to lead you and allow your support systems such as Maria and myself to continue in your life.  Our lives are our garden in a sense, and hopefully your husband is just a bad weed that needed to be plucked out.  I pray that you allow yourself to find peace in your new surroundings, plant new seeds of love,  keep negative people away from you for now, purpose to enjoy your time with Makayla even during the struggle, and stay strong.  You are a very strong woman or you wouldn't have handled this as well as you have.  Lots of love to you, as I am thinking of you and praying for you.  As for Micah, we do know that he is happy, and there WILL be justice.

 

What is your new address?

How sweet, Nana, a light for Micah to follow!  How are you doing?  My computer has been down for the longest until this past month or so, and I've moved it into my niece's room since she has moved out.  It is now just me and my husband...seems always a new normal we are constantly have to experience and get used to.  You have a friend named Maria worried about you so please pop in and let us know where life is taking you.  Lots of love to you and your family.

Micah my love I have missed you through out this year in away that is so mellow that I just talk to you I wish we could spend a day with you I would give anything I would give up anything for a chance to feel those little arms around my neck to hear that grunt when you hugged me I have moved us and i'm sure you followed the light will it's for you always I wake with you in my mind you are my last pray at night when i retire for the day I look at your beautiful face in the pictures on my wall and say gently goodnight my love whisper to your nana tonight my love i will always have you in my very soul you will always be with me send me some Angel dust to day I need it I woke with tears in my eyes and Micah on my mind

Nana, I'm praying that you and yours stay strong this Christmas season as I know that it's truly going to be tough for you.  Not only do we have a struggling economy to deal with, but struggling emotions too....especially you, as I know that you were at your happiest and on top of the world this time last year.  May God and the precious memories get you through, get all of us through.

 

Keep helping your friend.  God will bless you for it, and for your compassion.

 

Love ya!

Mmmm...That's Janice Jenkins, 15 Jenny Lane, Cartersville, Ga. 30120

 

Nana, so much going on around here it makes my head spin.  But I've been used to it for years, so have to smile....

 

This time of year is normally hectic, but more'so for me....daddy's estate and all, Jacky's yet un'finished...not to mention gathering the food, the plans, family and all which both Jacky and I love sooo very much!  I LOVE my small family and wide extended family sooo much, catering to them...just being here to enjoy life with them.  Jacky loved Thanksgiving more than any time of the year.  Me too.

 

I'm glad that you got yourself a job that you can be content with.  I might be wrong, but.....(I'm smiling as I type it)...I'll just bet that you go back to your old job at some point in life.  Yearn to.   Why?  Because of your experience.  Your empathy.  Your knowledge.  Your new'found wisdom.

 

I know that you recall my own recalls of my nephew David, who, same age as Jacky, died at fifteen due to bone cancer?  Well, David's  best friend that hung to his side constantly at the time,  just recently overdosed on...(oxy'cotten?<<can't spell it...).  Don't really understand it...the drug world.

 

He is dead at twenty'eight.

 

Same age as Jacky died with his boy'toy.  The motorcycle.

 

I used to kinda preach to them boys....and as I'm a heavy smoker....(sorry), I have to smile to my excuse.  Or was it the Luke excuse...<<<Christian cigarettes.

 

But they got the gist of the message.

 

Or not?

 

Luke died...is dead.

 

Normally it wouldn't  tap my memory (his name),  at reading the obits, but...extended family....calls...seemingly scrambling to unset their upset.

 

You wondered once what they were thinking...feeling....there in Heaven...

 

I didn't get backto you, but I did ask God AGAIN, because I'm so curious myself....

 

(I think that I have TRIED to relive EVERY death that I've personally had to deal with, which is a lot of them, seemingly, now, so....)

 

Paula White<<I THINK is her name>>came on at the EXACT moment that I asked God to give me something to pass on to you....(and MYSELF).....because I want to know too!

 

Nana, I know that what is meant for me is more'so meant for you, because the instant that  I asked it, God passed the message on thru ANOTHER person.  (This is how he works...)

 

Give me a little time, and I will study and document it.  I already have the scripture documentation, just not at hand.  (Don't trust anything anyone says, minus scripture)

 

But this sounds so right!  Read the books of first and second Corinthithians<<spelt?

 

Three layers of heaven...

 

Earth (Eden), the first

 

The Universe....stars, etc., the second....(Is someone on the moon NOW?  Yesss..! Can we see them?

 

Third heaven. 

 

Our boys.

 

They are there.  Can you see them? 

 

Noooo.  But they are there.  Instantly from this first heaven.

 

Now I  have a new question.  Did they go thru the second paradise, Universe, with as much awe as our astronaunts...?

 

Probably.

 

I have to smile to the thought....

 

I choose to live life, and live it with a smile.

 

How are you, Nana? 

 

My addy is Janice Jenkins, 15 Jenny Lane, Cartersville, Ga. 301202000