micah lee david howard

How horrific to not know how he died!!!!  I thought that you knew, assumed there was an accident.  No wonder you and your family have no peace.  A beautiful child lively and healthy one day and gone the next and you without an answer.  Yes! Yes! I am praying for you and your family, for peace despite the chaos.  Hang in there, Nana.  Despite it all, he really is a happy little heavenly campster now.

this has consumed me the thoughts that run threw me are so overwhelming if the autopsy would come back if i had an answer maybe it would be better if he was a sickly child or there was a car accident or something to explain the death of this wonderful child whom i loved so much maybe then i could rest but to not know is driving me to the edge it gets worse everyday no matter how much i pray i do know there will be a day that i can go on just not now i miss him this has torn wedges in my family i miss his brother his mother this has been way more than just losing my best friend this is so permanent it consumes my heart and soul p[ray for us all we need the lord to step in fast

Oh, Nana, I visit Micah's site regularly to check on you and light a candle.  I sense your pain and distress, so intense!  It's not God putting burdens on you, but the devil with a grip at you and your family.  Shout at him to go NOW in the name of Jesus.  Shout at him to take his hands off your family in the name of Jesus.  Ask God to put his arms around your family and turn this year into a year of new beginnings.  Your Micah will pray with you, being there in heaven and knowing that his family is in distress.  I think that would be one of his missions.  I will pray too, that God will move your mountains, and turn them into molehills.  I know that he will move in your life if you ask and trust in him to do so.  I had such a horrible year last year from beginning to end, but with God's strength and peace throughout,  so I'm not just talking off the top of my head, but speaking from experience.

 

I WILL soooo pray for you, Nana.  And please remember that Micah is very much at peace now, and it's time that his family receive an earthly peace and a happy and content life.  Things happen in life that we can't control, and always will, but God WILL give us the tools to conquer.  Prayer, faith and trust are powerful tools.

 

Mark 11:22-23

i was surprised today by the visit from Angela and De'angelo how i cried shock tremored totally out of control the emotions just took over me and my day when they left was just somber the thoughts the feelings so out of control as usual my friend Sherri was there to pick up the pieces and hear my tears and fears without people like her i would have gone nuts the people that you would think would be here for us my son my other relatives are not but someone so close and so far away is there every time i thank her again for being my rock i never thought i would say those words in my life time but i never thought i would bury someone so young what we think and what actually happens in ones life is so very different my god watch over all of us today and everyday this year could get no worse than it is right now for my family what is your plan what are you thinking what have we done to punished not once but in every way everyday of this new year the heart ache of the young is so strong the tears of the old so over whelming what can the lesson be I'll keep my open to try to see what I'm being told the lesson is so very cold

I AM FREE Don’t grieve for me, for now I am free I’m following the path God has laid for me I took his hand, when I heard him call I turned my back and left it all I could not stay another day, to laugh, To love, to work or play Task undone must stay that way I’ve found that peace at the close of the day If parting has left in you a void, then fill it With remembered joy A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss, Ah, yes, these things I too will miss Be not burdened with times of sorrow I wish for you the sunshine of tomorrow My life’s been full, I savored much Good friends, good times, a loved one’s touch Perhaps my time seemed all to brief Don’t lengthen it now with undue grief Lift up your hearts and share with me, God wants me now, He set me Free

JAMES AND CHRIS GOD AND MICAH ARE WATCHING OVER YOU I LOVE YOU

THANK YOU FOR LOVING THIS ANGEL OF OURS HE WAS GRAND

 

ANGELA MY LOVE MY CHILD I LOVE YOU TODAY AND EVERYDAY I AM SO SORRY FOR THE LOSE OF YOUR CHIlD THE PAIN THAT CONSUMES YOU WILL STAY AND I PRAY THAT SOME HOW GOD WILL SHOW YOU AWAY TO SUSTAIN THE LIFE YOU HAVE WITH BABY "de" HE IS YOUR LIFE RIGHT NOW NO ONE ELSE TO KEEP HIM SAFE HAPPY AND CHERISHED IS ALL THAT SHOULD BE ON YOUR PLATE TODAY PEOPLE WILL COME AND GO PEOPLE THAT DID NOT WANT TO BE BOTHERED FOR SO MANY YEARS WILL BE HERE TO HOLD ON TO YOU TO FEED ON YOUR PAIN

       NOW WILL BE THEIR TIME TO SHINE TO CATCH YOU IN YOUR VUNERABLE STATE OF MIND AND WORK ALL THE HATE THEY CAN MUSTURE UP {KATHI} AND TO THEM SHAME GOD IS LISTENING AND WATCHING THESE CHRISTIAN PEOPLE WITH THEIR MIND BOGGLING GAMES THE WORLD THAT WE KNOW IS WATCHING PEOPLE ARE READING THE WORDS THEY WROTE EMAILING THEM AROUND AND IT IS UNFOLDING EVERYDAY

         YOUR DADDY HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THIS I'M SURE HE LOVES YOU TRUE AND WILL HOLD YOU TIGHT HE WILL NOT PLAY THESE HATE GAMES SO WILL YOU IN  YOUR FLIGHT LAND WITH HIM HE WILL HOLD ON TO YOU TIGHT AND BE THERE NOT TO HATE OR FORM YOUR THOUGHTS JUST TO LOVE YOU AND BABY 'DE ALOT HE WILL KEEP THE BAD THINGS AWAY IF YOU GIVE HIM A CHANCE BE SCARED OF THE DEVIL SHE WILL LEAVE SCARES THAT WILL BE THERE FOR LIFE DON'T MAKE HER YOU LIFE PLAN

    YOU HAVE TOLD US ALL SO MANY STORIES OF HER EVIL WAYS IT'S HARD TO BELIEVE SHE HAS THIS MUCH ENTRANCE INTO YOUR PAIN SHE FOUND THAT WEAK LINK NOW SHE'LL HOLD ON TO IT UNTIL THE DAY YOU ARE READY TO STAND ALONE AGAIN WITH YOUR BEAUTIFUL SON AND THE GLOURIOUS MEMORIES OF THE ONE SO GRAND   YOUR MOTHER LOVES YOU I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE IN THE END SO WILL YOUR DAD AND YOU HOLD ON TO THESE WORDS THERE IS NOTHING YOU COULD SAY OR DO THAT WOULD CLOSE MY HEART TO YOU SO GO ON AND CRY FILL YOUR WORLD WITH A MILLION LIES IF THESE THINGS SUSTAIN YOU AND TAKE YOU THROUGH THIS TERRIBLE TIME BUT I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU TRUE

ON THIS DAY OF PAIN I HAD SO MANY PEOPLE THAT CARED FOR US ALL BUT WAS THERE TO HOLD US UP I HAVE 3 WONDERFUL CHILDREN BUT I HAVE THROUGH MY HUSBAND 6 WONDERFUL STEPCHILDREN AND THEY ARE ALL THE SAME TO ME THEY ALL HAVE WONDERFUL MOTHERS AND 2 OF THEM ARE MY BEST FRIENDS THEY HAVE BEEN THERE FROM BEGINNING TO THE END IN EVERY WAY TO HEAR MY TEARS AND PAIN TO COOKING OR SHOPPING WHAT EVER IT TOOK FOR ME RIGHT NOW I HOPE I CAN BE AS GOOD TO ALL THIS PEOPLE AS THEY WERE TO MY GRANDSON THAT DAY MICAH YOU ARE FOREVER IN MY HEART AND SOUL I MISS YOU SO AND I'M GLAD YOU HAVE A FRIEND MAMA THANK YOU FOR YOUR WORDS TO ME I ALSO HAVE THE MOST WONDERFUL SISTER VICKY AND NIECE CRYSTAL HER HUSBAND LUKE WERE THERE EVERYDAY FROM DAY ONE THEY CLEANED MY HOUSE SHOPPED MADE PICTURE DONATED FINANCIALLY AND EMOTIONALLY I WANT TO THANK THEM MY SISTER HAS ALWAYS BEEN MY HEART SENSE WE WERE LITTLI GIRLS SHES ALWAYS THERE STRONG FOR ALL IN EVERY WAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL

Dear Nana, thank you for visiting my son's memorial site.  Like you, I'm not only a mother, but a gr'mother to one true delight of my heart, my Haven (5).  I've often stated that I couldn't bare the thought of losing a child.  Well...I did...but...younger people (our kids) don't understand what it is to have a grand'child, the extreme love that one has for that gr'child.

 

I notice that you call yourself best friend to Micah.  One morning, long before my son was killed, I stared into the sleeping face of my sweet Haven and asked God why I absolutely adored her so?  He instantly put it into my spirit, that she was my best friend from heaven, and it's our best friends that are sent to us as GRAND'children.  Little ones that we truly have time for later in life.  Don't forget that all souls were created at once.  How we must have froliced with each other in heaven until our time to be sent here.

 

I lost a child, and thought that would be my worst night'mare.  Losing my grand'child WOULD absolutely be my worst nightmare.

 

My heart grieves with you...  Choose to stay strong...

Heartbeat so strong, Beating fast holding on. Mothers tears falling down, Slowly allowing time to fade round. Guilty conscience its ok, No time for sadness, No time for blame. Doctors that come bringing sadness and hope, Reality sinks in dose by dose. Gentle hand, beautiful smile. Nothing like the love of ones child. Anger at all that's happened and still, Cannot change what must be gods will. Families that circle and bring comfort to all. Will share ones strength when the other must fall. Stronger men have come and gone. While women have wept and stood strong to carry on. No matter the distance, Or time and space, Heartache will heal, And the emptiness fade. SEGARNER